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(no subject) [Sep. 20th, 2010|11:18 am]
it's us.
 ROAR this is the yearly post? June July September Will The Next Be October?
jiamin's in uh SMU geof's going to NUS for his double, who knows where fried and fiona are going???
I am luckier than I tell myself
but I want more than I could ever deserve
Because so much has already been shown to me! >:B

That is all!
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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2006|05:04 am]
it's us.
its 5.04 now. lol.
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(no subject) [Dec. 15th, 2006|02:38 am]
it's us.
[Current Music |some enchanted evening]

WOOT damn cool..

it's like 2.37 am and we're online xD

hahaha tomorrow we'll all die.

reliving choralex era as jm says!

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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2006|02:34 pm]
it's us.
the only way to friendslock this is to set the security of all your entries as "friends" from now on.

(we need a little privacy anyway.)
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2006|01:47 pm]
it's us.
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]

This place is stoning.

It's already the 19th...the last post was on the what, 15th?

I've been staring at this page everyday waiting for someone to come and blog zz. Since no one's going to do so anytime soon...-.-

Umm. Thursday err went to fried's house. Rotate next one will be mine >< Okay anyway met geof at j8 firdt then took mrt to cck to meet fried and jiamin. then all zao to eat diner ahaha first time sitting on LRT :DD quite funny leh like mini carriage liddat. (suaku) Okay whatever.

Ah let's all boycott the kopitiam outlets together lol. Stupid card payment system waste time only.

Como's rusty.

Eh shit I forgot what happened already! Omg I must be getting old -.- Only know reached back home damn late.

AIYA heck lah. This post doesn't make sense again. Shit I go continue mugging now.
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(no subject) [Aug. 15th, 2006|11:23 pm]
it's us.
so many things we want to say.

when you realise you've got some people whom you love and love you in return, you feel loved. then the fear kicks in...it's scary, like a monster that reminds you not to love too hard.

(it always happens to me.)

i wish for you to look my way...but what happens when you look away. i don't want to have to go through it again.

k...anyway. tHursday : )

yay we rock.
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as we sit and watch the world [Aug. 15th, 2006|09:19 pm]
it's us.
[Current Mood |thankfulthankful]
[Current Music |破晓 - 南拳妈妈]

it was three days, and i really don't know what i'm going to say, as i begin writing here.. so many things i could, but just wouldn't sound right, wouldn't show what i feel.

as we sit and watch the world, i look somewhere else and see a lot of things i don't understand. i see an old man who cries in the night, and people who treat him like an impaired little boy. i see a man disgruntled with life, complaining about the expensive medical treatment and comparing it to cheaper care in foreign lands, and forgets that it was in those foreign lands that he got attacked, stabbed, robbed.

i see people walking too and fro, as we all do, and sometimes its hard to wonder where they are going, what they will be doing, what their lives are like. who are the people they love, how much they love them, the feelings and thoughts that run through these people's heads, just as they sometimes run through ours.

but sometimes i feel the stab, i see the look in their eyes, i imagine what they may be feeling like, if only because i can never truely feel what they are feeling, from their perspective.. a reporter told me of how, wandering in the hospital on assignment, he saw a woman standing by the door in hospital garb, gazing upon the babies all laid out.. and he knew that she had a failed birth. raised his camera to capture her grief, only his assignment in mind, but then he felt her pain, somehow, inexplicably.. just then, she turned her gaize and caught his eye, nodded the smallest nod, and turned back.. he completed his assignment, but it taught him such a greater lesson..

i turn back to you who i love beside me, and i wonder how much i don't know.. the troubles you may keep, the silent hurdles you struggle over by yourself because nobody else can know.. i consider the trials i face alone by choice, and i remember that there are certain tests that i must face alone, and how i so often confuse them with the ones that i need friends to overcome..

i remember the times of pain that i had before, and wondered how it would have been like if you were by my side.. and of the things you had faced, and wish i could have been at your side too. what if we had known each other earlier? picturing a beautiful childhood and life, but its but a dream. i'm so glad i have all of you now, because if it were earlier or later, i don't know how it would have turned out. now, we have each other, and it's all that matters.

i think about the things in life that will try to tear us apart, so violently, the things of this universe that threaten.. and it tears inside and disallows tears. there are things i MUST worry about, or it could bring us all apart.. and its so hard to talk it out.

ahh. but i'm glad we're together now. at least we're together. at least we've got each other.
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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2006|10:43 pm]
it's us.
[Current Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Current Music |Carrot Juice is Murder]

granduncle's getting discharged tomorrow :DD

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(no subject) [Aug. 13th, 2006|08:55 am]
it's us.
it's just that, different people have different ways of expressing how they feel. so it doesn't mean that if you don't do something big to show what you feel, you don't care. and it doesn't mean that if you don't do something big to show what you feel, nobody'd know what you feel. when you care, people can feel it.

anyway, no point talking about all of this now. we all know where we've gone wrong so try to learn from our mistakes. besides, it's really time to grow up, gain a hold on the macro aspect of things instead of narrowing in onto the micro. and think for the group, not just for yourself.

but if you love someone, let him/her know.
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zz [Aug. 12th, 2006|10:37 pm]
it's us.
[Current Mood |contemplativecontemplative]
[Current Music |Maria -West Side Story soundtrack.]

I'm not gonna try to pretend I understand what you all are feeling, but the way you express your feelings are different, but they show that you care.

Don't be ashamed of how you feel, how you reacted, don't feel guilty about what you've done. It doesn't help. I know thisis a disgusting attempt to make you all feel better, and I've most probably failed since the first sentence of this post, but do me a favour and plough through this, much as you might not want to agree with what I'm gonna say.

I just feel that you guys need a confidence booster. Your feelings do matter. I don't have any good reason to support my claim now, but think about it. The way you feel shows that you care, and the fact that you care means something to the person whom you care about. Does that not matter? They know they mean something to you. In a sense, taht's all that matters.

Love makes the world go round.

Love makes, love breaks. Showing that you care never hurt anyone.

Talk about being rash. If you know you're rash, and that the things you do on impulse will make you feel regretful, then stop and think. When you feel the anger boiling up, when you feel the pressure, the stress, the worry, the many things that make you feel as if your head will fall apart, stop and think. Doesn't sound easy, true, it wasn't. I'm a rash kid, still am, but we all try. It's good to want to be level-headed, but we can't have a world full of level-headed, calm, composed people. Where would all the fun go to then?

Then being a woman. Define that. It's kinda impossible yesno? If the way you've been acting all this while is your self-defined woman, then by all means go ahead and continue acting the way you've been. There's nothing wrong with it, 'sfar as I can see. It wasn't wrong of you to want to help.

There's no point feeling guilty about anything. At least you tried to help. I, on the other hand, didn't do a thing. But nobody's blaming anyone else. So why're you feeling guilty? Blaming yourself? Nah it's not gonna help, so quit making yourselves feel miserable.

Slap me for saying all this, but somebody's gotta be the bad guy.

You're all not as strong as you make yourselves out to be. Believe in yourself. Trust that what you have done was all for the greater good. Highly debatable topic, this definition of good, but we'll leave it till next time.

Rest well, everything will be fine in time to come.


Never failed me.

Oh crud I hope what I've written makes sense, because I don't really understand it myself.

Just read gramps' edit. Triggered off another stream of thoughts, but I'm gonna keep it short.

Come to think of it, I've never really bothered too. Last year one of my good friends had pneumonia, she had to be hospitalised for a couple of weeks I think. I didn't even bother to ask her how she was, let alone visit her. And when she came back, I didn't do anything as well. And to think I consider her a friend and vice versa.

Getting to know jiamin has been a good influence then.

Don't be too hard on yourself. I'm rather unfeeling too, and I'm not proud of it, but I don't let it get to me too much. Even when I don't feel anything, I try to think of what I might feel if I were really feeling something. Or I put myself in teh shoes of another person, and try to think of how they might be feeling. That way, I can better relate to others and well not appear as cold blooded anymore.

Just my two cents, hope it helps.

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